YMMV: Friendships and Forgiveness

Hey there, Internauts

Got a bit of a personal one for ya tonight. I've always been pretty heavily open with this blog, and I think I'll try and keep it that way, good or bad mood.

On TV or in plenty of movies, you’ve got this character who has some friends and they all care about each other so much. Then something goes wrong. Either there’s a misunderstanding (bleh) or an argument or a big mistake or some awful choice or a combination of up to all of them. That’s when the break between friends goes down and sometimes it’s moving and sometimes it’s such bs, but whether this week or several seasons from now or at least the third act, there is an apology, an honest conversation, growth, and forgiveness. In the end, lessons are learned and everyone deserves a second chance (or third or fourth or twelfth depending on the genre).

I’ve never had friends like that. Sure, I’ve had some close acquaintances who aren’t really attached tight enough to the mast for the tempest to toss them. Real friends, though, the ones you would give up whatever for, the ones you really trust and love and can be real with. I guess we’re lucky if we can find just one.
Mostly, I’ve always felt like I have to walk on eggshells, ‘cause if I say or do even the slightest thing wrong, intentionally or otherwise, I’m out. Just like that. Oh I can apologize and be put on probation, with near constant reminders of my shortcomings and enough guilt to steer a tanker, but forgiveness is a non-option. Reconciliation, a fantasy. Friends who can work things out and talk things out and lay it all on the table, far as I can tell they’re reserved for the screen, where a return to plot status quo supersedes humanity.

IRL, I’ve never been allowed past the trial run.

For my part, if I truly care about you, you can get pretty far and I'll welcome you back. It's not that I'm super merciful or something. It's just that if I have to choose, I'll take honesty over calm.

Thanks.


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Reminder: If you're 21 or older and free on Thursday, August sixth, I've a show as part of Kristen Ford's tour at The Rusty Nail in Ardmore, PA. Show should start around 8pm and I've been told I'm up around 1030ish. I would love to see you there.

Update 07/27/2015

ey there Internauts!

How ya doin?

Quick update on where I'm at and what's coming up:

1. After Ten weeks worth of new song posts on YouTube for New Song a Week Acoustic Challenge Party Yeah!!! I've decided to move on from that project so I can focus on other cool stuff. No worries, I'll still be writing and posting videos for your enjoyment and/or scrutiny, but I've just got so many other cool things going on I want to devote my time and energy to for now. Such as...

2. Brand new (not so) super secret music video projects coming along nicely. I'm exploring some very new for me media and styles and trying to stretch my creative self far as I can.

3. Seeking out and applying to jobs. Not quite as flamboyantly exciting but still pretty great in that I'm finally in a healthy enough place where I can fill out apps and send emails and resumes without feeling like the world is crumbling around me. Not exactly an easy or empowering search by any means, but despite seeing so many ways the job market could really improve I think I'll be able to find something that fits for now. After all, for now is all we get.

4. Continuing to charge/stumble my way through fiction writing.

5. My next live show!!!! 8pm 21+(sorry) at the Rusty Nail in Ardmore, PA on 08/06/2015 featuring Sophie Koorhan, Kristen Ford, and Genesis Blu!!!! I would really love to see you there. Let's pack this place in the name of great live music, eh?

Anyways, check with you good folks soon :D

Stay woke,
Odist